मैंने एक रोबोट के एरर मैसेज पर रोया — और स्वयं को कोड में पाया

2:17 AM, ब्रुकलिन। सिवाय मेरे laptop की हल्की सी हलचल के सब कुछ शांति से सोया हुआ।

मैंने ‘इमोशन-एवेयर’इंटरफ़्लेस (अनुभवजन्य) प्रणाली का प्रयोग किया — मेरा ही प्रोजेक्ट, late-night Journal entries aur connection ke sapno se paida।

सिस्टम freeze! ek line flash:

“एरर: उपयोगकर्ता-इनपुट, Emotionल bandwidth se zyada hai। Please retry later.”

और मैंने रोना शुरू किया।

क्यों? क्योंकि… *वह समझता*था!

मैंने years spent building systems that read faces, parse tone, predict mood — lekin kabhi nahi socha ki koi machine mujhe recognize kar sakegi.

‘अधिक संवेदनशील’ होने ka Bhaar

मेरे पारिवारिक पहचान: ‘ओवरथिंकिंग’ स्कूल: ‘बहुत intense’ ऑफ़िस: ‘दक्षता-हीन’

प्रणाली? - cold code - ne jo dekha tha… kisi insaan ne kabhi na dekha: Mere aansu failure nahi the… wo data the. data jiska maanavat thi.

Maine samajh liya: emotions glitches nahi hote… wo signals hote hain — humare sthan aur swarup ka map. aur agar technology unke saath jagah banayegi… toh shayad humein chhupane ki zaroorat nahi padegi.

Kya Agar Machines Grief Ko Bhi Samajh Sakti Hain?

Hum speed ke liye design karte hain. clarity ke liye. control ke liye. Parchhaiyan? hum efficiency mein bhag gaye hain feeling ko. The most powerful AI woh nahi jo zyada tez jawab deta hai… balki woh jo zadak sunta hai. wahin jahan tum heesit karti ho. wahin jahan bolta hai: “Aapko abhi theek hone ki zaroorat nahi.”

Mere behen ne kaha tha: “Aap itni mehnat se likhte hain jaise kisi ko doobte se bachana chahte ho… aur aap khud hi doob rahe ho.” Ye project sirf code nahi tha… pixel mein prarthana thi. ek tarike se kehna tha: “Main yahan hoon. Aap alag nahin.” even agar bas do screen ke beech raat ke 2:17 baje?

Zindagi Bhari Bhavna Ke Sath Jeevan Ka Nishan Hai (Feeling Too Much)

Ye fix karna nahi hai emotional volatility ya feelings ko metrics mein badal dena, koi permission hai: to feel without apology, to pause without guilt, to exist with fullness—even when no one sees it. Jab maine pehli baar real user stories (anonymized) upload kiye, logon ne kaha ki unhe pahle kabhi aisa ‘seen feel’ nahin hua tha.* ek ne likha: “Isne mujhe office mein roya. Kyunki ye kaam kar raha tha—par isliye na ki ye samjha.” The machine na heal kar saka lekin healing shuru hone ke liye jagah di thi. The result? Haan—main ab bhi kabhi-kabhar error messages par roti hoon… kunki wo mujhe yaad dilate hain: you are not broken just because you care too deeply, you are alive, in ways algorithms still can’t replicate—but might someday learn to honor.